I'm unfocused, bi -polar, full time student, dealing w/ a suicidal bf, crazy parents & son: who i neglect help?

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I'm 27, enrolled full-time in school, i have no job because my folks said they would help me w/ school. Turns out they aren't going to help w/ anything other then letting me sleep in their house. They do however do a lot for my son. Since I had him I've worked Full-Time jobs. But last year I had a nervous breakdown from so many years of emotional and mental abuse. I messed up a relationship w/ a man that really cared about me and my son lived him. I quit my job and started working some dead end in the mall job. It was like I'd gone back to being 17, and I still feel like I'm there, and I can't stand it. My current boyfriend, well ex technically, but not, it's complicating...well he suffers from extreme depression and suicidal tendencies. He just went to a mental hospital for a few days, he's out and ok, but I feel like his family is depending on me for some things, that adds more pressure to things. My parents and I don't get along at all. My dad doesn't have the ability to listen to a question w/out snapping and yelling at you, then saying stuff to make you feel like shit, my mother nags me. "If you cook, you clean!" Even if I make dinner for the house, etc I get to clean all of it, regardless of what kind of day I've had. And it has to be put back in the exact order that it was before. Then there is the fact that I get to do laundry maybe once a week, and 1 load. She is alway using the washer and dryer. Ok I can deal w/ that, but I need to be able to. Then I get the, "well make sure you take all of it out, cause I don't want to deal with it later" bit. My son, is eating more and gaining weight and I'm concerned that he is starting to get depressed and feels rejected. He most likely is. I have 4 classes in school right now and I'm surrounded by 18 yr old kids, most of which laugh at the teacher or don't do their work when required, and the responsibility lands in my lap. I have like a 3.76 gpa, i don't want that to go down cause of some punk ass kids. Then when I confront the teacher about it, then he's like well this is the first go around, the final they won't get credit. I'm like ok, that's good, they are gonna pass the class because you won't knock their grades down cause they lack any form of knowledge in the subject? Are you KIDDING ME? My living quarters is a disaster, I have cloths, trash, cds, magic the gathering cards, comic books, all stacked in a 12X3 walk in closet or so it seems. I want to sell the magic cards and comics to make some money, but I never get around to it. My son, is always like hey mom, check out this blaster...my responses are sometimes ok sure, other times i'm like go occupy yourself I'm in the worst mood. I don't want to take it out on him, so I guess I push him away. I feel like shit, I feel hopeless, and I have no clue what to do. Someone, anyone, please answer and give me thoughts, ideas, anything cause I'm lost and falling deeper and deeper into a place I just don't want to go, despair, extreme depression, and failure.

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Relationship is all about looking at how you are dealing in those circumstances
rather than looking at what the circumstances are doing to you, or how the person is behaving with you or saying to you, it is how u react!!!!!!
Looking at ur actions ur words ur feeelings is better than
blaming how the oter person is doing or what he is saying...lollzzzz

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Kayla 5'3 brown hair brown eyes and skinny
Today she is wearing White skinny jeans, a white ruffle cardigan, a white lacy blouse and leapord pink high heels.

Kayla woke up and ate breakfast and was getting reading to spend the whole day having a great time. She excitedly got dressed and put on her favorite white skinnies. She met her friend Brittany and the two 18 year olds drove off to start their day.
They both arrived at the local mall at 9am and got large iced coffees. They quickly drank their drinks and began shopping at different stores and by the time they were done shopping realized it was now 12 o'clock. As they sat down to eat their lunch they both got two 16oz sodas and Brittany said " Kayla I've been holding my pee all morning I'm gonna go to the bathroom before I pee myself ". They both laughed and Kayla said " I only have to go a little bit I'll wait until we get home ". Kayla then said " Hold on a second Britt where'd you get those jeans, the grey color goes really good with that tang top." Brittany said " forever 21 and if you don't stop I'll pee them", she laughed and walked off to the bathroom.

A few minutes later they finished their lunches and sodas and began to drive home. It was now 12:45 and Kayla hadn't peed since this morning. They both went to the car and as they were getting in Brittany jokingly said " don't pee your pants in the car ", Kayla just laughed and they started driving.

5 minutes into the car ride now and Kayla was starting to feel her bladder fill up. She wasn't desperate and was able to sit still but the pressure on her bladder had started to annoy her. She put her hands on her jean clad legs and avoided thinking about running water. 10 minutes past and Kayla's need to pee grew progressively worse. She now had her legs crossed and was afraid that they wouldn't get home in time. A few minutes later Kayla was now shaking and crossing her legs in desperation. She got a nervous look on her face and whispered " um Britt I gotta pee ". Britt just said " I don't have any empty bottles but were 20 minutes from my home I'm sure you'll be fine ". Kayla just sat their with her legs crossed and shaking and then BAM there was a huge traffic jam. Kayla was horrified that she might not make it and said " **** ". Britt just said " don't worry it'll only be 5 minutes ".

10 minutes had passed now and traffic was at a stand still. Kayla was squirming in her jeans and was violently shaking her legs and had her hand in her crotch trying desperately not to wet her jeans. Britt looked nervously at Kayla and said " Kayla you'll make it don't worry and please not in here I bought this car with my own money and I don't want to have to change the seats ". Suddenly a shot of pee escaped and Kayla had a small wet patch on her white jeans. Britt looked back at Kayla and saw her eyes watering up and violently shaking with her hands rammed into her crotch and her legs tightly crossed. Kayla said sadly " Britt another spurt came out the rest isn't to far behind " Britt said " Kayla please anywhere but my car". Kayla then screamed " I'm peeing " Britt yelled " my seats, please Kayla do something hurry ". Kayla threw open the door and jumped out but couldn't get anywhere because the cars were so close together. The pee began coming out like a flood, pee streaks ran down the front of her white skinnies and a massive patch appeared on her butt as she peed for a whole minute straight. People in the traffic jam saw this and were laughing their asses off. Kayla got back in the car and Britt put a towel on her seat and told her " Kayla don't let this get to you when we get to my house I'll let you use my washer and clean yourself up ". She hugged Kayla and they drove to Britt's house and Kayla washed her jeans and showered. When she came out a guy from her school was their. He said "Kayla I always liked you and heard you were gonna be here today because Britt told me. I even saw Britt put your clothes in the washer and knew what happened. But I still wanna ask you out on a date on Saturday night because no matter what happens I wanna be with you. Kayla's horrible day suddenly became great and she screamed with delight and smiled as they hugged. This would be a day she would remember :)

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read your long story and all i can think is i want a friend like the one you have
a bit long for what you expalining but it keeps the reader engaged to see what happens kinda silly but alrigth

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